Life on Rural Street

Sorry - I know I haven't written much lately. I didn't feel well and then was busy. (excuses, excuses)

Do you ever have irrational fears? I do. I have on in particular right now that is weighing on my mind. It's actually pretty common too....

The DENTIST.

I haven't been in over a year. (yes, I realize I'm supposed to go every 6 months) When I was little I had the best dentist ever. His name was Dr. Fred and I never minded going to see him. When we moved to PA we started seeing a man who went to our church and was recommended to us. I left every single time in pain. He would claim my jaw was too small and just force my mouth open. Floss so that my mouth bled. You know how it is. So when I got married, I thought I would just go see the same dentist John did. Well this guy was a completely whack. I kid you not. The assistant who cleaned my teeth made my mouth so sore it hurt to eat for days. Then the dentist came in - looked at my wisdom teeth which had just started coming in and said - "Do they bother you?" When I said, "only sometimes" he said "ok, we'll leave them in then - no biggie."

I have since learned that this is not "no biggie."

I have also since learned that he told my sister-in-law, Jill, that she had no cavities and she has since found out she had four that he missed.

Since seeing this dentist my jaw has given me more problems. It tends to lock up and overall just ache a lot. This made me nervous that I might see the same assistant again. So I didn't call to make an appt. Plus I had a bad feeling about my wisdom teeth so I just put it off. I think I'm paying for this now. I have made myself an appt. to see another new dentist next wednesday.

And I'm scared out of my mind.

It's ridiculous. I know it is. It's irrational. I realize this. Yet, I am really frightened! I don't even know what I'm so scared of to be honest.

So in my prayer time I've been praying that God would help me get over this. Or that I would at least be able to place myself in his hands when I go. I realize there are a lot of other things I could and should be praying about. But this has been pretty much my only prayer topic for two days.

I realize how human I am when such minor things take over so much of my life. I need God in so many ways - and he can use the craziest things to help me remember that.