Life on Rural Street

I am and forever will be John's wife and Téah's mommy first in my life. They come before any other person in my life. However I have been missing my time with someone else lately. A little over three years ago, Gavin, my nephew, was born. I was at his birth and helped to coach his mom, my sister, through her labor. (Although looking back I was a lousy coach!) I fell in love with this little guy immediately. Gavin (or G as my family often calls him) will always hold a very special place in part and I think we are probably closer than most Aunts/Nephews are. Lately though, I've felt as if I've been not paying quite enough attention to my G. When John and I visit he likes to show off for us and I can't help but notice that he's quite a bit more "showy" now than he was before Téah was born.

Last night, we had band practice at my parent's house (where G lives). My mom was helping me out by watching Téah for me - unfortunately Té had a rough day and was in a pretty rotten mood. I heard her screaming upstairs and knew that my mom needed to get Gavin ready for bed too. So I went upstairs to relieve her for a bit and bring Té downstairs with me since we were going to play some softer songs. I was about to head downstairs and I look down and there is Gavin looking at me. He said in his little voice, "Will you come watch Thomas with me, Lilla?" I felt horrible. I wanted to watch Thomas with Gavin more than anything - but knew that I had to practice with the band so I had to tell him not right then.

I know that G knows I love him. But I think that I need to spend some time with just him soon. Everytime I go over I end up feeding Téah half the time and not being able to play with him. So I think that I will plan a time for my mom to watch Téah for a bit so me and G can do something fun just the two of us. I miss my G!!

Side funny note: (I nurse Téah under a blanket when he's around and he recently got a blanket, covered his head and informed his Grandma that he "was Téah and he was eating".)